So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew"* and saying so what if...

 

*I know Shannon hasn't posted this linkup in awhile (my heart goes out to her as the mother of a baby that cried 24/7) but I wanted to do it anyway.

 

- R's comforter came today and I HATE IT. Serious sad face. I didn't realize there were only ruffles at the bottom of it, not all over it. There's also a random stain on the bedspread and on the pillowcase it came with. Nothing I can't bleach out but still, uggh. Why can't I just be rich and afford the things I really want?! ;)

 

- R's recital is officially sold out and only N and I have tickets. None of the grandparents got them in time and everyone is bummed. The dance teacher is trying to see what she can do to maybe do two performances (one in the morning and one at night- I'd try to get R in both), and I feel for her frustration. It's hard to please everyone!

 

-  I am dreading having to paint R's room. It a pretty dark color of green so lord only knows how many coats of primer we're going to need. And my rainbow chevron idea? Well, N might kill me, and I might kill myself, but I am determined to get it done.

- The bathroom is leaking somewhere and it's getting bad. Since we're not doing the kitchen right now (so many sad faces) we really need to focus on fixing the bathroom before some serious damage occurs. If it hasn't already. But all N does when he's not working is work on projects around here and I know it sucks for him.

- Because speaking of crappy projects that never want to get done, he finally put the new transmission in the red Commander and last night it wouldn't work right. If the company he bought it from sold him a faulty tranny I am going to be beyond pissed. Yeah they might replace it just fine but the labor he put into that is not replaceable. Neither of us want him to have to do it again. -_-

- My phone upgrade is this week! The screen on my Razr Maxx is so broken you can see the motherboard showing through, but I really don't want to spend money on a new phone right now. I've also been planing on switiching from Motorola to Samsung and I'm kind of getting cold feet about it. N and my mom both have Galaxies (s3 and s4 respectively) and they love them, but uggh uggh uggh FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS!

- I've really over-done my activity level the past few days and last night I was in more pain than I was in right after my surgery. After hours of excruciating pain (and crying to N, telling him I was going to rip my pacer out right then and there in bed) I broke down and took one of the Dilaudid pills I was given. Big mistake. The pain subsided but I was so nauseous, dizzy (even though I was laying down!), and sweaty that I kept waking up about every 20 minutes feeling like I was going to die. Do they purposely make opiates make you feel like crap so you don't get addicted to them? Yuck.

 

- I am estatic today is the last day of April. It has been a terrible month!

So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

- ...I'm late to this link-up. I was so good at hoping on this one early but now that R has dance on Wednesdays instead of Tuesdays I keep missing it. ETA: The link-up doesn't seem to have been posted for this week but that's ok. I love the format for organizing my thoughts/ some things I want to share!

- ...Dance Moms totally lied to me last night. Chloe, Maddie, and Mackenize (the latter two are sisters) all did solos and during awards they showed Chloe win 3rd, Mackenize win 2nd, and Maddie win 1st (as usual.) Well those were just the overall awards and Chloe won 1st place in the teen category! She is my favorite and I am way too invested in those children that I never have, and never will, meet. ;)

- ...I cannot stop laughing about this (WARNING: video NSFW for about a half a second.) I feel like all sorts of funny stuff happens on the news in Denver. I just give props to everyone for not totally losing it. I don't think I'd have been able to stop laughing.

- ...The Avs lost to the Canadiens last night (uggh) and now we're tied with Chicago in the standings. No offense to Chicago (they're the team I always root for when the Avs inevitably don't make the playoffs) but I want that number 2 spot. Not because I care about "home ice advantage" but because I want to finish the season higher in the standings than the reigning Stanley Cup champs. How cool would that be for the team who finished second to last, last year? WHY NOT US BABY!

- ...If I'm not a fan of the San Jose Sharks, I think this is awesome!

- (Not really a "so what" but...) Someone just "recommended" (it's the Jezebel version of liking) my post-partum depression story (you can read it on the blog here) and I looked at the views- almost 30,000! I can't believe my story was able to get out to so many people! I've been meaning to write a sort of follow up about parenting and mental health but I was in too difficult of a place for awhile. I may start working on it soon.

So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

 

 - I'm late the link up this week but the fact that I had the energy to do this is definitely an accomplishment for me right now!

- I took Hank to the dog park today since it was a balmy 46 degrees (practically flip flop weather) and felt weird about being out without R. My mom has been watching her during the day a few days a week for the past few weeks while I work through my medication switch and this damned Gastroparesis (post on that coming later), and it's been nice but I've missed her. I wish I could say the same about her- she is living it up with her Gigi!

- Hank has been dirty and gross for a few weeks now, and got over the edge disgusting at the dog park today because it was so muddy. It's too much to bathe him here now that he's over 100lbs and we have one tiny bathroom and tub, so I made him an appointment for a bath and brush at PetSmart but it's not until tomorrow. We have a stinky night ahead of us!

- I have a BzzAgent campaign I need to finish in order to post about but I've been too sick to go to the grocery store. Uggh. I need to go later this week because:

- I am using my Disney Side party kit to help a friend with her baby shower! I am planning on making cupcakes and cookies (I got cupcake liners and cookie cutters in my kid) and I'll need to go to the store to get mix for both.

- Speaking of sweets, N got both the cookie dough and rice crispy Oreos at the store and despite my stomach hating me I tried both. The cookie dough is just too chocolatey between the chocolate chips and the actual cookie, and the filling just tasted like brown sugar. It wasn't gross per say, but I'm good with only eating one and not having any more. The rice crispy one was surprisingly good! It tasted mostly like a golden (vanilla) Oreo but with a yummy crisp in the middle. They were worth a try and now I want to try the lemon ones!

- I was already spoiled on Facebook for the first Olympic hockey game and I am PISSED. You would think that both the Avalanche organization and the NHL would be better about using a spoiler alert or something. ANNOYING.

- I am jamming out to a song by my favorite band Taking Back Sunday and just had to post some of the lyrics to my Facebook. The song may be about a girl cheating on her boyfriend and relates to my life in exactly no ways, but I am loving it.

 

- I take so many creeper pics of N and R sleeping whenever she's sleeping in our bed and they look cute. I don't think N is embarrassed which is good because I am going to keep doing it! ;)

(Ok maybe I have a problem...)

I've got some more posts to work on so until next time!

So What Wednesday

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

 - The Freedom Mobile went to the auto-body shop today to get fixed and I miss her.

- I got a rental (first time I've ever had one myself before!) and they gave me a Chevy Impala... When N called Enterprise they asked him if he preferred an SUV or a sedan and he said it doesn't matter. What?! It totally matters! I am an SUV girl all the way. I haaate driving small cars. This one isn't so bad all things considering. I'm just glad I have a car to drive.

- R cried all the way home because she didn't want to drive in the new car. She even had to give the Commander a kiss before we left it at the shop. It's too bad we couldn't rent a Camaro for her. ;)

- It's actually kind of sad we needed a rental in the first place. Do you know how many cars we own? Six. Six freaking cars. And you know how many I can drive? One, and that's my car. We have a 1989 Honda Civic (stick) that is N's daily driver because it gets great gas mileage, a 1987 Jeep Wagoneer (automatic but carbureted and requires a special hand to drive) with a hole in the transfer case, a 1967 Camaro that needs a new motor (N's grandpa is building him one!), a 1997 Jeep Wrangler (stick) that we bought from N's mom and are trying (desperately) to sell, a 2006/7 Jeep Commander (automatic) that N bought for cheap at work because it has a blown motor (he just bought a new motor for it and will hopefully put it in soon), and my 2007 Jeep Commander (automatic). We used to own an 80 something Monty Carlo that was N's high school drag racing car but we recently sold it. N was sad but we have TOO MANY CARS.

 

Here is the current Google Maps view of our house, haha.

- I need a haircut SO BAD. SO FREAKING BAD. My ends are awful but I have no idea when I could make an appointment and I hate paying to just get an inch trimmed off my hair. Our across the street neighbor cuts hair and once trimmed my ends for me, but I hate bugging her! Maybe I will bribe her with some treats.

- R's recital is Saturday and I'm way more nervous than I should be. It's going to be like 20 2 year olds trying to do a dance in front of a huge crowd and I just know it's going to be a shitshow. But cute nonetheless. If R freaks out she probably won't be the only one. Hopefully...

- We didn't go see Santa this year. We've gone to Bass Pro Shop the past two years for pictures and she was shy enough last year to warrant me being in the picture, but this year she is just too deep into her shy phase. She falls down on the ground and cries any time a stranger gives her attention (it's so fun!) so I know she wouldn't do well with Santa this year. Hopefully next year!

- I can't believe Christmas is a week from today. Where has this month/ year gone?!

So What Wednesday

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

 

- Dance class was cancelled and we're having a snow day today! It snowed all night last night and is still going and apparently the roads are pretty awful. The only thing is, is that we have pretty much no food in the house- I was planning on shopping today- and I'm not sure I want to brave it through the neighborhood to get to the store.

- I want N to come home (with food, haha) but he's actually busy today at work because according to him, "OMGOMHOMGOMG people just found out their tires suck." Hahaha!

- I have to use my little sister's car while N tries to figure out what's wrong with mine. She's in college across the country right now so it's not being used, but I don't really like it (it drives really weird.) FWP I know, but I miss my car! Actually I'm pretty mad at my car right now but we're in the middle of a love/ hate relationship.

- Every time Hank goes outside to pee and then comes back inside when it snows he brings all kinds of snow inside with him. But it's cool because I didn't want to clean the laminate in the first place.

- Ok I think I am going to try to brave the snowy roads to get food. I'm SO hungry and I don't want to eat Spaghetti O's again although I'm sure R gladly would. I have a touch of PTSD when it comes to driving in the snow because of a very serious car accident I was in a few years ago, but I try and deal with it the best I can.

 

RIP Blue Beauty, I hardly knew thee.

So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

 

- R colored all over herself while I was in the bathroom this morning and I can't even be mad because she used a pink marker to carefully color her little toenails. Hopefully her face "decorations" wash off by tomorrow though...

 

- I am weighing my aversion to put pants on with my desire for Starbucks today. I am dragging...

 

So ready to eat a whole pan of these. If everyone else doesn't get to them first...

 

- We still haven't even bought the ingredients to make the "crack potatoes" we'll be bringing to both N's mom's house and my parents house tomorrow.

 

 What even is this?!

 

- I'm letting R watch the My Little Pony "Equestria Girls" movie right now because it's on YouTube and oh my lord this is a complete abomination. How they turned something as decent as My Little Pony into this I have no idea.

 

- I got a new tattoo on Sunday and it hurtsss. I've been complaining about how sore my arm has been for the past couple days but nobody feels bad for me, hahaha.

 

*And don't forget to check out my first giveaway and the bottom of my last post!*

So What Wednesday

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

 

Bye bye undefeated road streak!

 

- The Avalanche lost last night. The played lazy until the very end of the game. They need to make sure their crazy record isn't going to their heads and be out for blood every night.

 

- R didn't even make it through one song yesterday at dance class. She was melting down before she even had to go into the studio and once she finally went in she just laid on the floor and started screaming. I decided enough was enough and took her butt home right away. She cried the entire way home that she wanted to go back but I know she would have kept tantrum-ing. I emailed the dance teacher (who is the nicest woman EVER) to ask if we could try the 11am Wednesday class and she said that'd be fine. We went today and R was great even though there were a lot of distractions! *whew*

- R has already grown out of her dance shoes! They still fit but are really, really tight and the poor girl has a nasty blister on the back of one of her ankles from  trying to wear a too-small pair of sneakers. I broke down and bought her shoes that are a little bigger today. I'm going to frame the old ones!

- I lost all my mail keys. Actually this really sucks. I know my Birchbox is in my freaking mailbox and Ipsy is too, or at least is coming soon. I just had four new keys made earlier this year and now I have no idea where any of them are. I'm losing my mind!

- I am still getting brutalized in fantasy hockey. UGGH.

I neeeeed you!

-  The new motility drug my GI wants me to be on ISN'T AVAILABLE IN THE US! What?!?! Also, it induces/ promotes lactation. Looks like I'll never stop lactating! R really can nurse until she leaves for college. ;)

So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

- N and I are going to the Avalanche game tonight alone. I love bringing R places, but she's in a phase that's too wild to sit through a hockey game, no matter how much she loves watching hockey. We'll take her to a Cutthroats game (CHL) sooner or later and I won't feel as bad if she runs around the whole time.

- I am going to take R with me to a tour of the Pepsi Center on Friday! A dear internet friend I've known for years is in town from Canada and I am really wanting to spend some time with her!

 - I watched 3 episodes of My Little Pony this morning with R, and I found myself scolding her for jumping around because I was trying to concentrate on the show, hahaha. It's actually pretty cute. But I still don't understand Bronies. I'll never understand Bronies.

- Speaking of ponies, I got R this doll for Christmas, and ever since I put it in the closet it's been making noises randomly! Last night I got sick of hearing "I love you mommy!" so I took it out of the box and yanked those batteries out. I have a ban on toys that make noise here and I wasn't going to let that thing torture me until Christmas. Oh, and did I mention I was reading scary stories online before it started going off last night? Fun.

So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

 

- My appointment with the throat surgeon was frusturating. For 5 years I've though I had/ been trying to treat GERD and it's possible that I actually have Gastroparesis. The doctor wants me to do an EKG to make sure my heart is healthy, and then try a new motility drug to see if that helps my symptoms. If it doesn't fully or at all then it's back to the drawing board for stomach or throat surgery respectively.

 

- I went to TJ Maxx today and bought a few things while basking in baby free glory. My mom has R for the day and walking around the store without my screaming/ running child is heaven!

 

- My puppy barks loud enough to set off every other dog in the neighborhood. He doesn't bark except when he's playing but good gracious he's got a deep bark!

- We never carved our pumpkins. I'm a little bummed out about this but the darn things got moldy! Next year I want preserved grocery store pumpkins.

- I've finally thrown caution to the wind and scheduled another tattoo appointment! Next Monday IT'S ON!

So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

- R got in trouble at dance class yesterday. She gets a little *too* excited sometimes and runs around like a crazy person. Her dance teacher gave her a stern warning to cut it out, and she pouted for a minute but got right back up and was great for the rest of class. If that was me I'd have had a meltdown in embarrassment and would never have gone back to class. We're living and learning over here!

- I've been having a really hard time with R lately. Her energy and intensity are just too much for me to deal with sometimes, and this has been a hard age. I wouldn't say she's more defiant than the average 2.5 year old, but she's definitely louder. Much, much louder. Just once I'd like to be able to get her ready, in the car, and through the grocery store with no tears or ear splitting screaming. Is that to much to ask?

- I have another super cool receiver pack to wear around for the next 5 days. This one needs to stay near my stomach as opposed to my throat so I have to wear it on my pants instead of around my neck.  This is difficult as I like to wear yoga pants 24/7. (Not even a little sorry!) Knock on wood this will be my last diagnostic test and my consultation is scheduled for a week from today!

- N was lied to at work and might possibly get screwed out of the long overdue raise he was promised. He hasn't gotten a raise in years and not only is underpaid for his position but he is by far the hardest working and most valuable person at his shop. I am having a very hard time saying "so what" about this because I am PISSED. :)

So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

- I am nauseous 24/7. (And no, I am definitely not pregnant.) Being emetophobic, nausea is my least favorite feeling in the world, but I'm trying to get by. I'm glad my Smartpill test is next week, but I'm also kind of freaked out I won't be able to take any nausea/ reflux meds for 5 days...

Hopefully R is as good this year as she was last year!

- The Zombie Crawl is on Saturday and I have nothing prepared yet. I need to figure out what R and I are going to wear (I believe I still have her tutu from last year) and head over to the Halloween store to pick up some face paint and lots of fake blood. I think we're going to bring Hank this year and I can't tell if that's a fantastic or absolutely terrible idea.

- I am sort of overly excited to send out my swap gift to Danielle for the Fall Friendly Swap!

This picture does them no justice!

- I've painted my nails three times this week. I was really digging the glow in the dark mani I had going on but once that Zoya polish showed up in my Ipsy bag I had to wear it, like, right away.

- The Avs won last night because they looked about as good as I feel. (I.e. not good.) Hopefully Coach Roy reams them at practice and they bring their A game against the Dead Things, er, Red Wings. ;)

So What Wednesdays

Today I'm linking up with Life After I "Dew" and saying so what if...

- R screamed bloody murder in the shower when I washed her hair. It gets washed maybe once a week for this reason but I had to do it.

- I parked like a crazy person (I'm talking completely crooked) in front of Starbucks. I was technically between the lines with room enough on each side. But the judgement radiated off everyone who walked by. Haters gonna hate I guess.

- If I'm wearing yoga pants or leggings every day. My thyroid med switch has not been kind to me and I've started gaining weight uncontrollably again. Don't judge my comfort, ok?!

- I didn't stay in the studio for R's dance class on Tuesday and she didn't even need me there! Ok, I'm actually super excited about this- there is nothing I want more for her than confidence and independence. 

- If R pooped on the floor last night. That's all I'm going to say about that...